CravingChaos

"give room for the sunshine that has been blocked by the sadness you choose to let consume you completely."

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Open Fire

I read a book called open fire. It is definitely one of those books that you can't put down and once you finish it you'll want to read it again. It's about this teenage boy who's always gettin into trouble but still has a great respect for his mother and because of that he turns his life around. I definitely recommend this book, it'll keep you turning pages all night.

Sunday, December 21, 2014

It's me

I've been hiding behind the pen name "Donald Driver" but I am really Logan Reese. I am proud of who I am and I am confident in people knowing about my life and getting outside of my comfort zone.

I am Logan Reese. NOT Donald Driver.

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Remember

I remember when all I wanted to be when I grew up was someone who played basketball AND football on TV

I remember when the hardest things seemed so simple and the simple things were the hardest

I remember when I played soccer just because I was faster than any other kid on the block

I remember when I got lost riding my bike around the block. I remember my mom crying when she found me

I remember trying to be nice to everyone and getting mad at bullies

I remember taking care of 4 little siblings as a 6 year old and feeling like an adult

I remember when anything could make me happy and I was so easily entertained

I remember when life was easy

I remember when all I wanted was to grow up and be a teenager

Now all I want is to be a little kid again


I guess the grass is always greener on the other side




Sunday, November 23, 2014

Dear Donald-

I don't know where you found her, but don't lose her. 
I pound and swell up every time she touches you.
I grow every time she speaks.

Her arms may be around you but it's her eyes that pull you in.

Trust me, I know. I go through this every day.
The closer she gets to you the faster I beat.

And stop worrying about the freaking future.
You're missing the moments in the now.

You need to have more trust in me. I am your heart gosh dangit.

As long as you eat, breath and sleep I can take you where you want to go.

Everything will work out, I promise.

 
Sincerely, 

your one and only-  Heart


Sunday, November 9, 2014

NaTuRe

I am obsessed with nature, with the wilderness, with the outdoors.

I love getting outside. 

I'm not just talking about outside my house.

I love getting outside the city, outside cell phone reach, outside my comfort zone.

There is something about the peace of nature that brings happiness to a bad day. Something about it refocuses my thoughts.

I like being alone and out of reach. But not completely alone. I'm the kind of guy that needs his space from the world but also wants someone to be out there with him. It gives me the balance of FREEDOM and COMFORT. 

Nature brings a special peace that you can't find while cars are honking and cell phones are ringing.

Sometimes even being separated from the world brings me closer to the people in it.

Sunday, November 2, 2014

Death=Endings

I believe in a life after DEATH. But that still means there has to be an END to this life.

Last week-
I was still playing football

Last week-
I knew this would be my LAST season
I knew that it would all come to an END
I was not afraid
I was ready for a BREAK anyway

Last week-
I didn't think that this BREAK could be an END
I didn't know it really could END
I didn't even know what ELSE there is

Last week-
I didn't know it would HURT this bad
I thought I would enjoy some time OFF
Now, I want it all BACK

It didn't hit me that I would NEVER play high school football again until that FINAL whistle.

I think I now understand the CONCEPT of DEATH a little better 

Football is all I do
But everything has an end

I've lived the same practice schedule life since 4th grade.
But everything has an end

I'm NOT a crier.
But everything has an end

I thought football would LAST forever.
But everything has an end


A life full of endings is a life full of deaths,

I am just grateful to know that there is a life after this death.